My last post left with me ranting about the state of a world I don’t understand and me wanting to hide in a cave somewhere. I can’t say I’ve completely gotten over that impulse, the wombat and I are still in negotiations. However, after my wife “encouraged” me into leaving saying I was being self indulgent and negative (I have chronic depression, waddaya expect?), anyway, … Continue reading Leaving the Cave
Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test?2 Corinthians 13:5 NIV Lately I’ve had a lot of time on my hands and as is common in these moments I get a bit reflective. It was in one of those moments I was overwhelmed with anxiety … Continue reading Self-Discovery and Other Hells
When I was growing up I thought that when I would have more surety and security. My faith would be solid and firm and unclouded. Yet the older I got it seems the less sure I am. In fact, the things I was sure of I am now questioning. So here I sit not on the mount of enlightenment but in the cloud of mystery … Continue reading Ecclesiastes
When I was growing up I belonged to a very conservative church. We believed in the inerrant scripture and that we engaged with God through our faith and works. We were taught in moral purity and to avoid the emotionalism of “other” denominations. Problem? As a teenager I was not exactly “pure” and seriously struggled with the shame of my inner life. Also, besides my … Continue reading I’m an Evangelical, Charismatic, Mainline, Conservative, Amillennial, ….. Aw, Forget It!
This week I had an interesting encounter at my support group I go to. Yes I go to a support group. Yes, I have mental health and life issues and I need help. That’s life, deal with it. Now at my group I meet all sorts of people which is awesome. The people range from traditional Christian, Muslim and discouraged agnostics. Our paths are varied … Continue reading One Way!… Not Sure.
A busy day today, no wonder I’m exhausted. I’ve been building rivers. It’s quite simple but does take work. You start with a single drop. A simple thought, attitude, or action. Then, make one God inspired change. That one change can build into something bigger. An idea becomes a passion, Inspiration becomes a creation. I started with wanting a passion. I followed up with writing … Continue reading Landscaping My Life
I know a few people who are dealing with addiction and so I’ve been looking at the 12 step program. What I’ve learnt is that the first and most important element is honesty. It’s this transparency that throws off the shame and the hidden aspects of addiction that it feeds on. However, I was thinking. If we just expose the lies and shadows, what do … Continue reading Cellophane People
I have noticed before the passage of a river over a rock bed. As I sit watching my wife pan for gold (she does have faith, doesn’t she) in a river I watch the rapid flow bounce and swirl around the rocks. The rocks aren’t moved, they aren’t dislodged, they barely change at all. But the river still goes on.The river simply adjust it’s flow … Continue reading The River
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”John 16:33 NIV https://john.bible/john-16-33 I have received many gifts in my life. Money, clothes, a family, many good things. I have gained joy from so many of these but I have overlooked perhaps some of the most … Continue reading Blessings of Tears
There are many words we get wrong or confused. Two of these are “Holy” and “Sacred”. Holy means perfect and complete. Without fault or lack. Sacred means set apart particularly for a divine purpose. In my life I have found little that is Holy. But Sacred? Yes, I have seen much that is sacred. The first clear moment of sacred was when I took my … Continue reading Sacrament